Panathenaicus

which no other man has contemned, and have deplored my fortune, although I have had no complaint against it other than that the philosophy which I have chosen to pursue has been the object of unfortunate and unscrupulous attacks.[*](Such as are described at the beginning of the Isoc. 15..) As to my nature, however, I realized that it was not robust and vigorous enough for public affairs and that it was not adequate nor altogether suited to public discourse, and that, furthermore, although it was better able to form a correct judgement of the truth of any matter than are those who claim to have exact knowledge,[*](See General Introduction; Isoc. 13.7 ff.) yet for expounding the truth before an assemblage of many people it was, if I may say so, the least competent in all the world.

For I was born more lacking in the two things which have the greatest power in Athens—a strong voice and ready assurance[*](Cf. Isoc. 5.81 and note; Isoc. Letter 1.9 ff.; Isoc. Letter 8.7; and Aristoph. Kn. 217 ff.: ta\ d' a)/lla soi pro/sesti dhmagwgika/, fwnh\ miara/, ge/gonas kakw=s, a)go/raios ei)=: e)xeis a(/panta pro\s politei/an a(\ dei=.)—than, I dare say, any of my fellow-citizens. And those who are not endowed with these are condemned to go about in greater obscurity so far as public recognition is concerned than those who owe money to the state;[*](An unpaid fine entailed disfranchisement in Athens.) for the latter have still the hope of paying off the fine assessed against them, whereas the former can never change their nature.

And yet I did not permit these disabilities to dishearten me nor did I allow myself to sink into obscurity or utter oblivion, but since I was barred from public life I took refuge in study and work and writing down my thoughts, choosing as my field, not petty matters nor private contracts, nor the things about which the other orators prate, but the affairs of Hellas and of kings and of states.[*](See General Introduction.) Wherefore I thought that I was entitled to more honor than the speakers who come before you on the platform in proportion as my discourses were on greater and nobler themes than theirs. But nothing of the sort has come to pass.

And yet all men know that the majority of the orators have the audacity to harangue the people, not for the good of the state, but for what they themselves expect to gain,[*](See Isoc. 7.24 and note.) while I and mine not only abstain more than all others from the public funds but expend more than we can afford from our private means on the needs of the commonwealth;[*](See Isoc. 15.144-152 and notes.) and they know,

furthermore, that these orators are either wrangling among themselves[*](Cf., for this contrast between the other orators and himself, Isoc. 15.147-149.) in the assemblies over deposits of money[*](For this common cause of controversy see Isoc. 4.188 and note. Such controversies were sometimes referred to the General Assembly and there debated and voted upon.) or insulting our allies[*](Cf. Isoc. 12.142 and Isoc. 15.318.) or blackmailing[*](Cf. Isoc. 15.318.) whosoever of the rest of the world chances to be the object of their attacks, while I, for my part, have led the way in discourses which exhort the Hellenes to concord among themselves and war against the barbarians

and which urge that we all unite in colonizing a country so vast and so vulnerable that those who have heard the truth about it assert with one accord that if we are sensible and cease from our frenzy against each other we can quickly gain possession of it without effort and without risk and that this territory will easily accommodate all the people among us who are in want of the necessities of life.[*](The theme of Isoc. 4 and of Isoc. 5.) And these are enterprises than which, should all the world unite in the search, none could be found more honorable or more important or more advantageous to us all.

But in spite of the fact that myself and these orators are so far apart in our ways of thinking and that I have chosen a field so much more worthy, the majority of people estimate us, not in accordance with our merits, but in a confused and altogether irrational manner. For they find fault with the character of the popular orators and yet put them at the head of affairs and invest them with power over the whole state; and, again, they praise my discourses and yet are envious of me personally for no other reason than because of these very discourses which they receive with favor. So unfortunately do I fare at their hands.

But why wonder at those who are by nature envious of all superior excellence, when certain even of those who regard themselves as superior and who seek to emulate me and imitate my work are more hostile to me than is the general public? And yet where in the world could you find men more reprehensible—for I shall speak my mind even at the risk of appearing to some to discourse with more vehemence and rancor than is becoming to my age—where, I say, could you find men more reprehensible than these, who are not able to put before their students even a fraction of what I have set forth in my teaching but use my discourses as models and make their living from so doing, and yet are so far from being grateful to me on this account that they are not even willing to let me alone but are always saying disparaging things about me?